Today’s post recounts my cousin Stacey’s journey of healing her inner 5-year old child. If you haven’t read the other posts in this series, I invite you to do so here. They tell the story of how Stacey received homework from Spirit on what she needed to do to breakthrough some lifelong limiting beliefs and her beginning steps in the process.
Just as she had done previously, Stacey set out her childhood chair across from her own and invited in her 5-year old self. In her mind’s eye, a child appeared. Unlike the 2 year old, this child was not scared or shy, rather restless. “Why am I here,” she said?
Stacey introduced herself just as she had before as the older version of her. She explained to the child that she was in a safe place. She was free to speak and the only purpose of the meeting was to get to know one another and heal anything that was currently causing the child pain or grief. “How are you feeling? What are you thinking?”
The child fidgeted and seemed somewhat skeptical but after a few moments replied, “I’m jealous.” This was not something Stacey had expected to hear. Scared? Sad? Yes. But jealous? It came as a shock, a surprise, yet as she sat with the words, they began to feel familiar. She began to recognize the subconscious pain she had carried for a lifetime.
She recalled the envy she felt over her little brother who had been born just before her 3rd birthday. She remembered feeling left out and unimportant, feeling as if she had to vie for love and attention. Of course, that is completely normal. It happens when siblings come along, through no fault of parents. But for a child, it can be a real experience of loss.
As she had done in the session of her 2-year old healing (read post here), Stacey reminded her 5-year old self that her feelings were normal and that she could always reach out to her for help. She told her how special she was and asked her what she needed. “Can we do art together?” the child asked shyly? Stacey smiled and nodded. Art had always been her place of peace and self-reflection. And so they headed to the art studio on the back porch and proceeded to spend the afternoon painting.
Currently, Stacey and her brother are the best of friends. Their relationship reflects none of the jealousy she felt in that short period as a child becoming use to sharing her family. When reflecting on what came up in the session, however, Stacey can review her life and recognize how this subconscious belief wove its way into her existence – in her relationships, her self-confidence, and her career.
Shortly after this session, Stacey experienced a situation with her ex-husband that normally would
have caused an intense jealous reaction in her. As she started down a familiar and emotionally destructive path, her daughter, who was witnessing the event, said, “Mom, now don’t be jealous.” A light bulb went on immediately. Her 11-year old daughter was speaking to her 5-year old self. It was a lesson of being in the present moment, recognizing the part of her that was having that reaction was not the current version of her. Her own child didn’t know it, but at that moment, her daughter brought Stacey back to her present, perfect self.