In addition to my work as a medium and healer, I work a full-time, regular world job. And it’s been a really long week! To keep it simple, I manage people and processes. In the course of my day, I come across many different personalities. This week was one filled with people who seem to be most motivated or comfortable with ‘hair on fire’, ‘there’s a crisis around every corner’ kinds of mentalities. If you’re an empath like me, you find yourself easily sucked in to the drama and chaos that these people seem to operate in continuously. It’s exhausting. It can be, if you allow it, a huge drain on your energy. And it can come with a lot of judgment towards those people. How can they continue to work or live like this? Why are they making such destructive choices? How can they possibly be happy? But just as you have your path and your purpose, they have theirs. There is no better or worse; no one path or method more important than another. We are all manifestations of the same Source energy, each experiencing our own journeys, to ultimately achieve the same goal – Awareness.
I am a believer that we unconsciously manifest situations and experiences that reinforce our beliefs about ourselves. For some people, who may have experienced a childhood of constant change, disappointments, and emotional, or even physical, feelings of insecurity, those experiences translate into beliefs such as ‘I am unsafe’, ‘I am unloved’, ‘I will be abandoned’. The beliefs live within our subconscious and in most cases, unrealized by us, drive our actions and reactions. So, the chaos and the constant drama in the lives of some people are simply manifestations of these beliefs created in childhood. The woman who subconsciously believes “I will be abandoned” will continue to manifest unsuccessful relationships and therefore deal with the breakups and the pain of loss and the drama that is congruent with abandonment. The man who believes “I will never have enough” will find himself with less than secure employment, maybe living paycheck to paycheck, constantly looking to others for monetary support or a shoulder to cry on about his never-ending cycle of financial distress, the “why me?” factor.
The truth is, no matter how many positive intentions we set, until we come to understand our underlying self-beliefs and clear them, we are vulnerable to their power. I did the work, the sometimes very painful work, to identify and come to understand my own beliefs created from my childhood experiences. I didn’t lead a difficult childhood. It wasn’t one filled with stories of unrelenting pain and anguish like some have. I was loved and cared for by two wonderful parents. I did, however, experience my own traumas. We all do – pain has no prejudice. So, today, I acknowledge that pain and release it. I am returning to the pure, loving conscious entity I know I am. I am re-training myself to remember that I am perfect, whole and complete. I don’t expect there to be a finish line on this path, as we are here to have this human experience and learn lessons. That learning process is boundless. However, I believe this path will get easier; its purpose will continue to grow clearer and it’s light brighter.